I saw my pdoc today. She told me that he knew I was manic before he took me into her office. he told me that I had a crazed look on my face. (Thank you for the boost of confidence pdoc, lol)

I refuse to go back on lithium. Pdoc put me on abilify. So far it just made me sick to my stomach. I hope it kicks in quickly. Pdoc said if I get any higher they would hospitalize me.

I feel stupid know. I could not sit still in the office. I kept getting up and trying to leave. he kept saying no we are not done. he had me repeating everything back because I can't focus.

I have not been in an acute manic episode in a long time. Hopefull we can get it under control without hospitalization.