I can't work out who I am after our last session and I cant seem to quite access the present fully, like I'm a bit stuck in that place? Or a part of me is. So foggy. I've written a lot, but some of what I wrote I don't remember writing and my hand writing doesn't look like my own. I'm having to work very hard to keep myself safe. I'm hoping we can make some sense of this on Tuesday before you go away. I wish you weren't going, but you already know that.