Thank you for sharing your story. I started a second round of therapy and am still in it, after a 15 year break. I did approach the second round with more self assurance and I think that served me well, because it did enable me to take control and I do have a different relationship with this T than I did with my others. It is way less transfer-y and focused on them and much more focused on where I want to go in my life. It just works better for the reasons I went to therapy.