No need to be conflicted about taking care of yourself and sticking to your guns, Sweety! Nobody knows better than you what you need to take care of yourself.
Everyone here needs to understand boundaries if they don't already. They need to learn to respect them and not question them, especially when they know someone is new to setting and holding boundaries.
I respect you for what you're doing for yourself.
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.