I am still trying to sort out this relationship. On the one hand I really thought I loved her and wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. And, I sure as hell know that I miss her. On the other hadn I did some nasty things to her when I was depressed to drive her away. And, she returned in kind with some nastiness herself (actuall lowered herself to extorsion). And, most recently she is accusing me of promiscuity based on some postings by someone with a similar screen name. It is absolutely insane. I guess in the long run it is for the best that we are apart. Seems like with both have our own demons to battle. All I know is that I may be depressed, I may have made some bad decisions, BUT I am not an evil person, or in nay way unfaithful to her as I loved her dearly. Still do love her, with all my heart.