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Yesterday I was able to admit for the first time to my t what I thought were sadistic impulses and she said no they weren’t, they were the result of being hurt. I thought I was confused about my sexuality and she was like no, you don’t get off on hurting people, you never set out to hurt people, what you are is a hurt person defending herself. She’s right. My whole life I’ve been abused from my family in childhood to my former supervisor at work in the present day . I’ve finally risen above it all and feel triumphant. Im not dark, I’m deeply wounded, and carry permanent scars. That’s why I’m staying away from intimacy for the moment.