Thanks everyone for the understanding support. I have some issues here I need to face if I plan to accomplish the things I've been working my *** off for in the last few years. I fear if I continue messing up on occasion that I may slip back into an everyday thing and damage what I have gained. My mind is still a mess from this event and one afterwards too. I didn't reply because I was ashamed that I did it again.

I am sober today.

The "Girl" who happens to be disruptive and extremely annoying is getting my hint now. I've been ignoring her calls. Having class every night helps keep me busy, I won't miss class for nothing.

I appreciate ya'll not being harsh on me, even if I deserved it.

I have a question though.

If your getting sober and haven't used in awhile do you have pouts of confusion and forgetfulness....lose track of typical daily things??? Did you have hard times sleeping too??