My ex and I broke up about a year ago. When we broke up I became
depressed which triggered the downfall of my mental health. In the summer of 2017 i truly went off the rails. I was 17 years old with unmedicated ADHD and depression. I was also raped in 2016 and my parents found out about it in summer 17 and when they found out i felt depression and pain I’ve never experienced before. I was impulsive and reckless because I was so depressed I didn’t give a **** about what I did anymore. Sex didnt mean anything after being raped so I was promiscuous and hooked up with many guys. Everything during that time in my life was a blur. Anyway. During the time my ex’s friend would flirt with me and try to get me to send nudes. I didn’t want to because I was still in love with my ex but I let my guard down and sent the kid nudes because I wanted him to stop bothering me. I know it was stupid. I forget it even happened honestly because life was a blur and I wasn’t myself. Anyway. Yesrerday the kid showed my ex my nudes. My ex got mad I sent nudes to his friend and blocked me. He said he did have feelings for me but now we can never be tofether. I love my ex with all my heart and I know I ****ed up. I regeet it so much. I’m tired of living and ****ing everything up. My ex was the one person on this earth i genuinely love and my stupid mistake ruined everything.