Hi Jerehiahgirl,

I'm terribly sorry for your losses. I know how painful it can be to lose those close to you. It's understandable that your emotions are all over the place but I know that can be exhausting.

Something that has helped me is try to get into the present moment and stay there as much as possible. During the times when my brain needed a break or I was at work etc, just focusing on what I was doing in each moment helped me to stay grounded. When my emotions would inevitably bubble up, I acknowledged the feeling and reminded myself I would take the time to feel them later, and I gently guided myself back into the moment.

Something else that's helped me is to buy a book/workbook to help me with my pain-either one based on faith or grief etc. It helps me feel like I'm going to be okay. There are people who've been through what I have and there are tools that I can learn to help me.

I'm glad to hear that you have your faith to find some solace in and I hope you feel His love all around you. He is in our suffering and He's right there with you. It's also okay to cry and feel however you do. There is no shame in struggling and if you need to it's okay to reach out for help. My prayers are with you.