First of all, I feel I have to say that I'm really debating with myself whether to post this at all, as everyone who I've told about it, (from people I know personally, to people in other various forums) has had a, shall we say, less than productive response for me. I'll I've ever been looking for is some insight.
For starters, I should say that I've never really been a religious person, though I've always had an interest in religions, however. Not in that I'm looking for a faith or anything, but I've always been into ancient books and texts of any kind.
A while back a friend of my suggested I look into some old texts that were available online, and so I did. After looking over some of them for about an hour or so, I stopped for a while to watch a hockey game on TV. The only reason I mention this is because the coverage of the game began at 8:00, which is when I started watching, while the game itself began at 8:08, which becomes important in a moment.
After watching the pre-game stuff for a minute or so, I started feeling dizzy, and very soon after I had what I can only describe(though, again I'm really not a religious person) as an extremely intense religious experience that seemed to relate to what I had been reading earlier. My eyes opened, and it all felt exactly like a dream, except that when it ended, I was out of breath. Not like you'd be after running a marathon, but it literally felt like I had no air in my lungs. Then I just sat there breathing very deeply and thinking about this strange dream I had just had, but then I noticed that the game I was watching still hadn't started. This whole event lasted no more than a a minute or two, so even if I had fallen asleep, I couldn't have started dreaming that quickly. Not to mention that I have terrible problems getting to sleep even on occasions when I've been awake for more than 24 hours, and I wasn't the least bit tired at the time. Maybe the strangest part of it all, was that afterwards, I felt absolutely great in a way I can't explain. It was as if all the problems that I've been dealing with were completely wiped out. Like I was suddenly free of all psych-related issues. Unfortunately, after a couple hours, that feeling faded and I was back to regular state.
Now I know that I have my share of psych problems, but hallucinations have never been part of it. I've tried to find some explanation but I've come up with absolutely nothing. I spent a long time trying to convince myself that I had fallen asleep, that I was reading the clock wrong when I "woke up", or that it was some new psychological effect I hadn't experienced before, but it just doesn't make any sense. I really have no idea how to interpret this.
So there it is. I already regret it, but it took me too long to type out and I don't want to wake up tomorrow hating myself for not posting it when all I had to do was press continue. So here I go.
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