yes yes yes thankyou colleen and thankyou el..
truth is i let the thoughts racing thru my mind telling me im worthless and better off gone overpower how hard im tryin to heal...
and everytime that happens I HAVE HAVE HAVE to listen to my friends that can tell me its just the thoughts in my mind...and that im fighting..and that i want life so bad...and i want to heal so bad and i hate forgetting that...and i hate losing it...but i just get so overwhelmed sometimes and i lose it....i lost it the other day....but friends....El....got me back...and im so appreciative...
thankyou both...thankyou everyone...
so please please please please if i ever slip again..i don't want to ...but i might...please please please remind me...becasue sometimes i cna't get there...sometimes whats in my head just takes over so strongly...but there are certain ppl i trust who can break thru it...who i can trust and who i can believe....and it works it really does...
and im so so lucky..
(((((((((el and colleen))))))))))))))