i haven't come here much in quite awhile. i am in bed most of the time. my soul cries, but my eyes won't produce tears. i'm like a klutzy robot. anyway, just wanted to let you know that i'm still alive and breathing. on the 31st, i'm going for the surgical consult for the implantation of my vns generator. *sigh* i hope it goes well and that there will be no more wrenches thrown into my journey to getting better.