Dear FM,

I am at the cusp of being productive today, though atm, I am back to procrastinating. I feel like the stuck stuff needs one last chance to come out, then I can live, work and eat and enjoy. I wonder if more sessions of cursing through emails will get the tantrum to end. Yesterday, I was in a coma and slept all day and night. It amazes me how the body processes things.

I hesitate to contact you because I am not into doing philosophy. I'm borrowing old unused therapy time - yes, I know it does not exist. But the child in me gets to create the game her way and am not willing to open my head to adult atm. I need one last "something" before I get to being productive. I say this because I am grinning as I am typing and I can see you smiling back. The girl is ready to heal, accept what is offered to be soothed.

I will call MLK for positive reinforcement, but you might get a string of expletives throughout the day. Thanks for letting me work through my process and you being okay with all of it.