I didn't have your freedom. I was honestly really busy with training etc. I used it as an excuse to get out of invitations. I didn't got to my award ceremonies at school. One girl made a comment about my smart boots. Not mean. But it made me uncomfortable.
Thanks for dithering. I was indeed doubting my self. In olafs pub you had every right to whisper to Matt Damon that I was trouble or bad news or whatever it was what everyone thought of me after my detainment. I did go off the rails. But I got help and I got myself back to some semblance of the humdrum of everyday life.