I don't really know what to say Lavendera, but since you want an answer i will try to think of something to say lol.

The only thing I can think of at the moment is to wait until you see your doctor, to see if he confirms that you have depression and anxiety. Obviously depression can cause a huge drop in motivation and energy, and it sounds like you are struggling with this at the moment. If your doctor agrees that you have depression, and if you decide to go on meds, then the meds should, given time, increase your motivation and energy levels. I don't know if your husband knows or suspects that you have depression, but if he is unaware of it, maybe it is time to educate him? If he knew a little about depression, even if he just knew a few facts and didn't fully understand it, it may help your relationship.