He said it's "too much". I told him I have a consultation with doctors at Johns Hopkins in a month. Maybe that's why he said it. He said he will see me after the consultation. I don't what to make of today's appointment. I am agitated and scared. Maybe my illness is magnifying my feelings. I need some med adjustments and he told me to "call" if I'm having any problems. He is a very good nurse practitioner and I don't want to leave him.