I don’t know what else to do I’m going off my meds for 3 days ( I know bad idea) luckily I have my Ativan to keep my somewhat calm. I can’t stand it when you never listen to me about my medication and how it is not helping but you always say it is helping but in the past I’ve had I cigarette to keep me calm ( which I rarely rarely do) but now maybe I’ll go off my meds and not smoke not be relaxed not do anything and maybe just maybe when I see you on Tuesday morning you’ll see I’m not calm the medication isn’t working and I’m really getting tired of this. I know somewhere deep down you care about me I remember when we talked about our love of Harry Potter ( I was wearing a shirt at the time) and you went on and on about how much you loved it. I don’t quit seeing you but at the same time if it’s going to be a battle maybe I should see someone else in your office but oh how awkward would that be? I can almost imagine you wanting to throw your high heels at me right now.