Hooray for another rupture today only over the phone.

I told Kashi about this forum. Today we had a rupture over the word “love “ in therapy. He will not use the word towards clients as in “I love you”. I imagine most therapists do not and would not. But in my case it hurts terribly as my long term t told me on many occasions that he loved me, even in front of my parents when I was very young in family therapy. He said it a few times before over the years and it saved my life. Long term t is only marginally and occasionally in my life and it hurts

I feel like I hit the crux of my problem. I need to really know the person sitting across from me that I am so vulnerable with really loves me. Not “feels warmly” or somet watered down bs. I need to feel love.

T says it is a hard boundary for him and he never says it to patients. He wouldn’t say if he FEELS it towards patients and just does not say it.

Would like be your thoughts on this. I’m guessing you are mostly going to think I’m nuts for needing or expecting this is any way.

Kashi pretty much dared me to ask this community so I’m making a poll