I have been getting to know them a lot more these days, I think especially my amnesic blockage has been broken and now I have more understanding of the traumatic memories that I have been through. I rarely have amnesic effect now due to trauma, but have that co-consciousness of different identities that we have. Yes! We have a safe hiding place, where we would escape to, as what we call it pseudo-hallucination, so the traumatised ones can hide in, when we cannot find it anywhere else in this world as safe nor people.

My therapist told me that the persecutor is mean, but in a way it has a job to do. I have no idea what it means in my case. I have heard about a persecutor is protecting us as well, but I could not understand this so far? Yes, I do feel that the persecutor is modelled after multiple perpetrators or abusers from the outside in the past. We don't like Louise, the persecutor, because she is verbally and physically abusive and does not let us feel anything good, or else she would punish us. She says that we are unlovable and all that.