I’m not sure if I am Borderline or only f’d with my own head, getting myself diagnosed with traits and EDD...

However, my father died when I was 12. I didn’t know he was dying. Nobody told me. I did not feel abandoned. I did not feel anything, just maybe shock because I wasn’t important enough to even be told he was dying and to say good bye.

Since then, I felt nothing when my grandparents died and I loved them very much and was close with them. They lived full lives and I recognized the circle of life.

I really don’t feel abandoned at all by anybody. (Except a creep who left me sui in a strange city and literally abandoned me)