Dear T,

I wish you could stop my physical pain. If this is the rest of my life, I want to die. It's not worth it. What I wrote in my email isn't all true. You're helping me by being there for me, and I don't think heartmates is just a technique. I believe you genuinely love me along with every one of your clients. I'm sorry. It's the pain. I can't take it. I still want to know if you think you can help me with my other stuff. I know you're imperfect but I love you anyway! I got only 4 hours of sleep last night. This disease sucks!!!!!!!