Multiple teachers said I didn't try hard enough. Coach said I was lazy and a bad influence. Lip music. However my step dad said that I needed to chill more. I was too high strung at home.
My mum called everyone in the house bone idle. Men don't do housework unless you ask them half the time.
I was spreading myself too thin by trying to keep all my balls in the air. I didn't want to give up on my brain and studying. I wanted to grab every chance I could with my sport and I got further than anyone would have guessed. I must have been trying to channel some anger and deep down unease.
I then got a job as well. College, training and work. My boss put me down for overtime without asking. Everyone was expected to do same. My father had just returned to work. Partly thanks to me. Like a slap in the face he would sit with arms folded and eyes closed and would say he worked a proper full time job unlike some and didn't pick the easy way out.
I could have went back to my education anytime. I desperately needed a year out.
I was hungover to the moon one Saturday and Fred answered my phone. I groaned I couldn't be bothered and the boss on the phone overheard me. Was it any wonder I lost motivation? The coach and team mate made fun of me for working in a supermarket. She is in retail herself now. I told her that getting a job in our area is very difficult. It takes luck a lot of the time.

At my four year iob . My boss said that I never complained and got on with whatever was thrown at me. All the younger ones she knew were always gurning. I was not lazy. There was a boss in supermarket that told my gran that I was a good worker. And my first boss was good at evaluating me.

My father being ex army, wanted a kid like himself. I liked to read, draw, listen to music, play computer with friends and just hang out. I didn't have the competitive nature for team games. I didn't mind badminton. I liked liked kick boxing.

I love the outdoors. The Beach and forest walks are amazing in my area. I just wasnt interested in whatever the " burn" was. And pushing myself to run so.hard that threw up and carried on.