The first thought that readers might have is Asperger's and I have read about that. I don't think I have all of the qualifying symptoms. However, as a teenager and young adult, one sound that drove me into rage was the sound of rain on our tin roof. I would roll and tumble, put my hands over my ears, and sometimes fly into rage and beat on the bed. I would run a fan to try to drown out the sound. That was the only thing that caused a reaction that extreme. It seemed to pass at some point in time when I got older. Though I don't have that sort of reaction anymore, some noises still bother me. I can't sleep without the white noise of a fan running. I often feel that my symptoms include small parts of many different disorders. I have never told my psych about this because there just isn't time to go into the past. At this point, I'm trying to understand some of the things that made my younger life difficult. Any similar experiences or ideas?
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