I've avoided telling you what to do because I personally hate being told what to do. In fact when someone tells me to do something, I do the opposite. However I thought I would weigh in. If you are not feeling safe, if your husband doesn't feel he can keep you safe, go to the hospital.

Picture what happens if you hurt yourself and your kids find you. Or if they lose their mom. Do the hospital FOR your kids. They will find it hard now, but when they are older they will look back and see that you took care of yourself so you could take care of them. That's what it's all about.

You are smart, funny, beautiful and just an awesome person to be friends with. Take care of yourself because you deserve it. You deserve happiness.