When you said 'how long does it take'... That's such an open-ended question because everyone is rather unique in how they operate and process things. So it's kind of like asking someone 'How long does it take to learn the guitar', when in reality some people will learn and pick it up much quicker than others.... So understand that it's not practical for anyone to really give you any sort of time frame...

I can share with you that there was a 5 year period of my life when I experienced significant emotional purges (releases) and profound internal realizations and epiphanies - which combined served to completely transform my inner-life... In hindsight I can tell you that I feel full acceptance for my life experiences - and that all of the prior suffering and hardship feels like it was absolutely worth it. That there was a purpose behind it, and it was leading me somewhere important (internally).

Tevelygo, I can't tell you how long your own healing and transformation will take to play out - but I can tell you to keep going because I have seen (experienced) what's waiting for you on the otherside of the suffering/pain/hurting - and it's beautiful. You were meant to work your way through this... And by the way, it's completely natural to not know where things are leading and what the outcome will be. You're sort of blindly navigating your way through the dark and faithful that you will eventually find the light... It will happen - you just have to stay focused and maintain the intention and willpower to push forward....