Because my job is ending, most likely. And I have too many current medical bills. I don't know how I'll ever afford to be on my own. I'm too expensive for myself. I'm trying to save, which isn't going well. Just more bills keep coming up. I tried to basically put aside what would be my rent a little shy of it and I keep digging into it to pay things off. Maybe next month will be better is my mantra but it usually isn't. I'm starting to think I'm just a bad money manager. I had lots of practice growing up but still I'm missing the knack.

Than I think I could be living with my ex, but I know in time I would have been miserable. I wouldn't have had my nice family birthday. I miss when they liked him because I still do.