You're weird...a similar kind of weirdness hit me recently when I was in my 50s. Grew up in the Bible Belt. Not saying there isn't "something"
about our "essence" which transcends death as I believed for yrs and yrs,
but for whatever reason I awoke one day and suddenly confronted the possibility that this is it. That our physical rots,
decays, and we enter a pure state of nothingness.
Death of all, physical, ego, all we are. As has happened to the billions...and billions...of other human animals who have lived on this earth,
now billions (grasp it) of yrs old. Wow.
That said, when I think what an extremely profound experience we're all having--my God, we're in space, for one thing,
on a damn planet rotating!--yeah,
well, anything is possible and I remind myself not to let my limited human animal eyes get focused on only what it can see...like the grave...what we can't see might be just be angels sitting on a cloud. Who knows when there are universes within universes and dimensions our human animal senses can't perceive (heck, we can't even hear the tones that dogs and cats and other animals can hear right here in this dimension!)
Anything is possible my friend.
PS...Remember, you, me, he, she...we are all animal in pants so best not to get too big for our pants is what I learned along the way.
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Originally Posted by amicus_curiae
Your first post - welcome.
Yes, I’ve had similar feelings. My theory about anxiety/panic attacks is that they are a kind of existential crisis caused by the fear of nothingness, of death. I think that the horror that you feel in re being alive and your probability of being alive for a long while might actually be the universal fear of death; the very opposite of what you’re able to express.
“Total separation from reality.” Yes, absolutely. That’s death, isn’t it? The final separation from reality? I’m afraid that I’m quite the Freud revisionist, sorry. I believe that you’re experiencing a kind of living death as a kind of revolution against that final exit that we all fear.
***My words echo thus, in your mind - TSE***
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