Double majoring and doing EMT? Please speak to your psychiatrist about what is happening and your career advisor. You body is giving your warnings. Please do not ignore them. You need to be proactive in taking care of you or you will not make it.

Have you ever considered becoming a psychologist?. May not be so rough and you will be helping people.

The thing about turtles is that they are tough and there are also times when they need to withdraw and stay safe when it gets dangerous. Even doctors when they are fully trained have some kind of support system. Please reach out in the real world and get help.