I realize whatever I'm doing isn't processing properly because I just remain to see the things that happened as friends being unreliable, uncaring, and guys as untrustable (I'm female), etc. The friends part is worse though... or it's more like I'm able to SEE and react to that more, and the guys part is probably worse in actuality and I can't even get to react to it fully still. And the interpersonal therapist that I visited again yesterday said it's normal for friends to be unreliable???? And that you are supposed to just find other friends and keep moving on to new and new friends????

Oh that visit... it was lasting 90 minutes and because of the topics I just kept crying (well trying to hold it back but...), and at the end I felt like I did the hardest ever workout. My stomach felt like being stabbed etc. I'm not sure this is good? Or?

She actually asked if we should continue with this therapy because it just seems like torture to me but I said it's ok, let's go on and see if it gets anywhere. Idk if it will get anywhere... The next appointment is in 2 weeks because I'm supposed to be working on a job next week (if I don't completely fail at being able to work!!), but I don't mind having some rest from that I guess.

Except it isn't really rest, it's just slightly less torture here at home. And I can't do the job I'm supposed to work on.