Ya like wildflowerchild25 I feel like the biggest drama queen and it’s all for attention and I have these inner discussions with myself “am I a big fake, do I need medication, how did I get to this place in my life?” and so on and it’s just a never ending cycle. Then when I’m really unwell with either depression/harmful thoughts or the hypomanic fun high, then I’m like....oh right...I see it now. For me I think it stems from denial/acception issues.