I continued to tell the story about the attempt from many, many years ago. One of the main points is that This brings up two issues. Current t asked, 'you would definitely tell me if this feeling happens again, right?' And I gave the honest answer of yes. But then I asked if it was ever possible to email her to ask to talk to her on the phone. She said that if I was at that point, she'd prefer that I text because she doesn't get notifications for incoming email but she does for texts. So, I'm left wondering, is the issue that I shouldn't email to ask to talk but should I text to ask to talk? Or is it that instead of talking, she'd prefer to communicate via text? It took sufficient courage to venture as far down this vulnerable line of questioning as I did, and didn't have the -whatever- to ask - can we talk on the phone between sessions in emergencies?

The other concern I have is that I am unsure what I would do if current t wants to report previous t for abandonment (she came to the hospital to tell me she was terminating, without a plan to transfer care), and I'm not comfortable doing that. Again, it took enough emotional strength to get through this discussion as far as I did without also being able to discuss the reporting aspect.