Hey everyone,
So I've been getting a tiny bit of feedback at work that I need to change my personality, less confrontational, more friendly, at least during a specific time of day doing a specific role. Its kind of frustrating because I'm neither confrontational nor unfriendly, but all of us are being told to be more friendly at this particular time of day so I know its nothing personal. For example, I get blamed for other people's mistakes and it really frustrates me, but I'm just supposed to put up with it.

It did however get me thinking like wow, my job wants me to change my personality, and ok, maybe I'll change it for work at work, although I don't think the criticism is warranted as none of my customers give me that kind of negative feedback. I'm once again feeling like quitting my job but since I gave it a 2 year commitment and I'm only 15 months into it, I'm not going to quit as I'm not a quitter. So that brings me to my question, yes I know and accept I have and have had a mood disorder over half my life. I was also disabled for 10 years due to PTSD.

It frustrates me that people who are distracted at work, more worried about their relationships then their job, are making mistakes and I'm the one having to take the fall for them.

I want a promotion so I'm willing to submit to the feedback, but I've seen people downright lie who are being put up for promotion and I'm like really, lying is rewarded but telling the truth isn't? I often wonder if I'm in the right job, part of my job is retail, and I'm quite sure that's not the right job for me, but that's not all of my job so I stick it out.

Has anyone else been through this kind of self induced pressure before? I'm the one who chose to go off disability because I wanted to work and I chose this job for a variety of reasons but its so utterly frustrating at times.

Like its nobody's business that I have a mood disorder due to trauma, but sometimes I get so frustrated.