Oh I get it totally! I'll write more tomorrow because my eyes are droopping. But yes, or rather I'll say I'm stuck in the middle here with some folks criticizing my behavior and some loving it. I think I value the critiques more though, so I'm trying to get help, plus I know for fact I suffer depression and am damn sick of it...at the same time, I'm worrying about what my "real" personality is. My moods are what made people fall in love with me. What if they don't like the new me afterall??! Well, I am hoping the important ones do, but again, I'm kinda stick in the middle.
Ahh, I'm not sure if I'm helping. I guess the lying part was a different group. I liked those people too, except for the lying and they ended up not liking me, so was I crazy?? In the wrong place?? So, in that sense, I can understand your pain. Ok, so, guess I answered.