I struggle with this eternal question from time to time. I struggled with it as a teenager. I was raised Roman Catholic. My mother became disallusioned and left the Catholic religion. That is also when I stopped attending mass. I wanted to believe in something more that does not involve the basket being passed around for donations for the church. And it was continually passed around until the priest felt this yielded adequate funds. At least this is the way I felt.

Now fast forward to my current life. Most of who I know are much older than I am. They have been passing one by one. I understand that this will inevitably happen to me. So this has me thinking again about my place in the universe.

I do believe there is some type of creative force that exists. I do not believe in the biblical God. I do not think such a being can be ascribed human emotion and definitely not human like understanding. I think this beings thought processes, if there is such a thing as thought processes with such a being, would be entirely alien to us. This would be like ants trying to “understand” and “acknowledge’ our existence and the purpose of their existence. This is impossible.

Some of us without knowing it see our God in our own image, rather than the other way around. I guess this allows the concept to be brought down to our level of understanding. I think this creative force, if exists, may be beyond our current comprehension, and this may remain that way. I do not know. Furthermore, perhaps this eternal force does not require any explanation or acknowledgement at all from us for us live a fully productive life that is also spiritually fulfilling. I do not know. Now how to we fit into all of this? Again I simply do not know. Maybe this is not a bad place for me to be?

However, as I grow older, closer to an age that is at deaths doorstep, I am sure this question will become very important for me to consider. However, this effort may very well turn out to be a futile attempt at solving the unsolvable. Maybe I will end up being much happier and fulfilled once I understand this. Personally, I like thinking that we are here to experience as much as possible, and then share this obtained wisdom with others in some way, where they can benefit from this effort of ours. Just a thought. At the very least, it would make for good altruistic goal. I also think that this cannot be better embodied than in the relationship a parent has between themselves and their children

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