In my case, finally telling the secret T implored me to put on the table, to trust

T, at the end of session , oh I will be out of town Friday( cancelling but giving no reason)

It dawned on me that my T is topnotch at his job, but when 50 minutes chimes, he is done being interpersonal. Getting Cinderella'd/ pumpkined, realizing he sees this doctor patient- that made me shift my paradigm that therapy is a special, touching , mysterious process to both me and my T. It hurt, and yet it is facing reality- not a bad skill for a daydreamer/dissociative. I am ambivalent now about my T instead of adoring.