Hey cool09,

I've had that effect from MJ. I honestly believe that I never would have been paranoid psychotic if I hadn't abused cannabis. It has some beneficial effects, basically numbs me to all my problems and makes life lighter, my thoughts seem clearer and my head seems brighter and lighter, but the downside is the paranoia and long term anxiety. I do think I'm less anxious than a few weeks ago when I finally stopped. I was only consuming a little bit, not like when I am psychotic when it is all day long without respite. I wish I could have the beneficial effects of cannabis without the downside. It also helped with chronic pain or so I thought. On the other hand my pain level is not too bad atm. My main frustration in life is that I have so few friends and no one I can really count on if things go downhill for me.