That ****ing escalated quickly. I ****ing feel horrible. I am sooooo high I just want it to stop I can feel my eyes rolling around in my head I can’t hreathe it’s not anxiety it’s manic energy and my thoughts just WONT STOP. And the music, dear god, stop the music and my name being called! Stop!

When I get home I’m going to take an Ativan and sit under my weighted blanket I really feel completely out of control and it’s rexulti’s fault **** this **** man I am going back on inveg and I don’t give two shits. I don’t. I don’t I don’t I don’t. I’m gonna see how I feel tomorrow and if I’m still ****ed up call pdoc and try to get in Monday or Tuesday. I dunno if I can survive ten days of this. I mean I can but it’s hell.

Sorry for all the cursing. Hope it gets bleeped out.