So, many developments have happened in the past few months, and a project I've been wanting to do, but not sure how I would ever do it, has suddenly had a whole bunch of doors and a pathway to completion open up. The right people have presented themselves, the right opportunities, and I feel like I'm being "called" by a higher power to do this thing.

So I am applying to a PhD program so I can conduct this research, possibly make huge advancements in my current field, and hopefully create a lucrative career.

Problem is, I am applying for a PhD in a field that I didn't get my BA or MFA in. But I have worked in the field doing testing and evaluation for 14 years. I'm applying to a pretty competitive program, but I think what I'm proposing in terms of research, and the practical applications would be very attractive to the Uni, and it's application in my related fields.

But now, 15 years after I've finished my MFA, I now have to go through this process of applying for a university again, filling out financial aid forms, getting letters of recommendation, doing pre-reqs, and I am faced with the fact that this will be the next 6, possibly longer, years of my life. That's the scariest thing, is that it's SIX years of my life. I will be 43 when I finish (I hope). When am I going to have kids? All that jazz?

Yeah, so, I'm excited and scared and unsure all at the same time. Also, I am wondering if I should apply to more than one program, but everything sort of relies on relationships I have at this university, so, I dunno...Have to think about that. They don't have this particular degree program everywhere.

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