Meditation?

Any form of self punishment... its just not a good thing and you dont deserve it.

Thats what I tell myself to keep myself from it. I used to cut, head bang, bite myself, wrist bang, use lighters... the worst. And it was so hard to stop...

But its so important to stop. Because you arent evil or awful or anything like tbat (I know because I used to tell myself the same thing) and you DONT deserve this.

Maybe this wont be enough to get you to consider just... quitting cold turkey. But I hope you do. I really do.

What helped me do that- when the addiction was powerful- was remind myself I didnt deserve it but ALSO... Id give myself persmission to do it. But always later. Like, I cant self harm now, but can in an hour. And then an hour later go- I cant self harm now but CAN tomorrow. And keep going. Always tellint yourself later, instead of never, makes things so much less... restrictive and black and white and just... difficulat and defeating