Thanks for the input. Yeah I'd be interested in this Well I mean once I'm able to get past the previous experiences. I know I'm too stuck in it but I haven't found a way to get past enough to also feel like I can trust that other relationships will work out better. It's like... these people were very important to me. And all of it went bad. OK, I'm just repeating myself. I mean I can sometimes have glimpses of positivity like thinking of ideas like yours here now, and then I could almost act on that but then it's all gone quickly.

Like I said, I'm not even sure what's going on with me getting reallly really really REACTIVE emotionally, like I posted earlier that I was reading some article on here on how to deal with bad emotions and I got into pain just from reacting to the article.

Does this have a name, whatever it is am I going through?