when your low and level for so long it becomes the new normal ... always a new med ... always the same ... sometimes I thought its better ... at least I told myself it was ... there comes a point you just accept what is ... and things will just be this way ... the sad thing is when I was ( way down in the blackness ) ... I had a reason to look forward to ... not a good dream but one just the same ... now ... nothing ... day after day of nothing ... no hope of change ... no future dream ... oh well ... I am working so there is money for the family ... I guess that will have to be enough ...

if it was not for my "girl" ... well you know ...

just bitc***g ... no need to respond ... Tigger ...


... slowly , I guess ... ( going into the sunset )