I booked a session in with the T you recommended, for Monday. I'm really not sure if it's a good idea or not, especially seeing as he's a man...I can't believe I'm actually going to see a male T. I think it says a lot about how much I trust you, I feel like if you trust him then I can take a leap of faith and try to trust him too. I think you'll be pleased I'm doing this. And anyway, anything is better than ending up at the GP or under crisis team. Once I get through the weekend it will only be one week left. I am struggling big time but I'm surviving. I miss you so much. The fear is overwhelming, I'm not sure I've ever been so afraid.