Day 18:

WC, I think about this every day because of my overall fragile health situation, so I appreciate your thoughts. You are fortunate and blessed to have a husband you can count on. Right now I am having another pang for cannabis. It seems to happen regularly in the morning and once I get through that I am ok for the rest of the day.

cool09, yeah the anxiety would go through the roof and then I would smoke more to temporarily quell it only to have it roar back stronger. It was a positive feedback loop. I'd only get paranoid on it when psychotic but then I am paranoid all the time. In many ways my psychosis was a break from anxiety. An escape from my grim reality.

Thanks to both of you for following and commenting here. It helps to have the feeling that someone is listening and cares enough to respond.