(((( Sabby ))))

It is so nice to have your support. Yes, I have more resources than I did five years ago, and one is having friends here. I have learned a little about coping too. Depression can still get to me, but I can get out of it faster. It used to hang on for years at a time, and now usually it's just a few days here and there, and I usually manage to push through it and get up and try again.

I don't know if I could handle something in my mouth. I have a really bad gag reflex, and need to breath through my mouth. Sometimes chewing gum helps.

Going to court is a huge trigger for me and I don't know if I can handle it. I'll talk to T about it. She suggested challenging the ticket too. And my insurance company seemed to think it was worth a try.

I went car shopping today. I wasn't suitable to go to work, and told them I had to deal with car stuff today. I hope they understand. I drive so much, I need a car that gets good mileage, like 40+ mpg is my standard. The Saturn was about there, but it's made of plastic, and hasn't felt safe in the bad weather. I was thinking about a hybrid like the Prius, but can't find any that I can afford. I ended up putting a down payment on a Hyundai Elantra wagon. It's a sturdier car and feels much better than my Saturn did (I can actually see out without sitting on a pillow!), and might even get better mileage than the Saturn. It needed some work though, and the dealer is going to try to get that done tomorrow. I might get it tomorrow night or Friday morning.