I know I don't. Like you said ww--guilt is a bad word..just need to let it go....

Have tons of emotions happening today. Maybe seeing my t set it off some. He did help in some ways. I was so embarrassed as I had a panick attack. But he talked me through and got my breathing under control. I wanted to run out of there but did not. Normally, I would have. I made myself stay and work through it for once. But after, I wanted to cry an ocean and sail away....

I feel like crap (sry, ugly word). I am beyond sad.....its dark and stormy. I want to go, just don't know where.

Justy