confused... i am so sorry. i want you to know something.. you inspire me. It's true. i'm going thru some very difficult things around my failing marriage too.. and your courage is so shiningly obvious.

in all this %#@&#! you are mired in you still think of your kids first... you still keep going. i wish i could let you hide for even a day or two.. let you just catch your breath.. maybe you could see that you've got so much more strength than i think you can see now.

can you ask your T to just be in a supportive role only for a few sessions? Be blunt that you need *nothing* from him but kind words right now. His good intentions have added to your load maybe.

all of this.. all of this mess... it's all a small blip on your life... there will be a time when THIS is the past... this turmoil will not last forever.

today i hope you can just shut out every voice except the voice of the good you.. the one that still sometimes sings along with a song on the radio... the one that quietly holds the candle so you can see in the darkness. Shut everyone else out, the good, the bad, the T's, the lawyers... all of us. Just for a bit. Buy yourself a favourite food, sit somewhere you normally enjoy... and just breath in the small pleasures in those things.