I think I may be crossing the bridge from hypomanic into possibly actually manic but maybe not. It’s only because I keep seeing things. I feel absolutely wild eyed today. Like seriously I feel like I could run a mile which doesn’t sound like much but I can’t run more than 30 seconds lol!

I was soooo freaked out on Wednesday and if I were at work right know I would be freaking out and turning mixed because of the pressure of having to hide this from everyone. I’m actually kind of freaking out because this is just too much. So I just took my depakote (which I forgot yesterday dammit) and I took an Ativan. Hopefully that’s enough to keep me from flipping **** today!

How do you know you’ve switched from hypomania into mania? I still don’t think I have because even though I’m seeing things I didn’t impulse buy **** and I drove the speed limit (police paranoia). Buuuut I am seeing tinder guy tonight and I can say I might hook up with him because I really want to which is unlike me and all my previous hookups have been when I’ve been hypomanic.

I see pdoc March 27c ten more days. Why is it always ten more days?