Im addicted I know it.. I cant go a night without my whiskey... but with my NOT drinking during the day and only drinking at night,, is that so bad?? I know it is.. Im on meds for Borderline, depression, anxiety and multiple sclerosis.. My MS drugs have a bad effect on my liver.. I drink till im wasted EVERY night. I want to stop.. I was posting here not to long agao and stopped bc I wasnt ready.. am I ready now?? I dont know... Drinking.. drunkness... my escape... nothing worries me, I have no fears.. but when im sobr i fear my drinking will cause me great harm.. my shrink says AA.. I have yet to go.. I want to go but I have no one to go with and Im afaid if I sober up then I wont be able to enjoy a party every once n a while but then again.. alcoholics.. need to be sober right?? I dunno.. so scared.. so confused.. dont want to drink but SOOOOO want to.. does anyone get it???