I had been seeing my pdoc for 10 years. She is by far the best pdoc I have ever had, the one who finally clued in to the fact that I am bipolar and do not have major depression. Since the bipolar diagnosis, I have generally been more stable on my meds.

At my January appointment, she told me she is retiring. I knew it would come at some point, but just not so soon. She is a wonderful pdoc and deserves to enjoy her retirement, but I can’t help but feel abandoned by the news.

Worse,it is a nightmare finding a new pdoc. I won’t go into my recent (and only) appt with a nightmare new pdoc March 2, but it was awful. Other pdocs with good reviews have a 6 month waiting list. I called the old place in tears, and they put me with one of their other docs with good reviews and squeezed his schedule, so I can see him March 22. I know from reading his reviews he seems to have similar practices to my old pdoc, but still...after 10 years, there is a lot of history there, and I had a lot of psych history prior to seeing her. Starting fresh feels overwhelming.