Thank you, all.

Mugwort2, I am similar right now. I know why though. It's because everything falls apart for me eventually. Or good things will happen, then they don't last.

Laurie, I don't believe I am depressed, though I am on meds, so I cannot tell. Maybe I am. But for me, it's more so because of what I wrote above.

Justafriend, I hope that changes for you. You deserve every bit of happiness, just as much as anyone does!! We all do.